whoa

I have to remind myself not to get overwhelmed at the beginning of semesters. This always happens to me. You go to class, they give you the syllabus and dump everything you have to do in 4 months (and pass with at least a B) in your lap. Then, a couple of hours later, you finally process what they told you and you go, "Seriously?!! How in the world am I supposed to get it all done and still be somewhat normal?!"

And then I think about last semester and remember that it can be done. Just lots and lots of caffinated beverages.

In the particularly stressful past couple of days ( dealing with stupid preceptor contracts that don't go through until the last minute and being asked by Vanderbilt if I have a "Plan B" if this doesn't work out---seriously, I'm supposed to start clinicals next week- why would I have a plan b??!), I have had the thought cross my mind several times, "Why am I doing this again? Wouldn't it be easier just to keep working where I am until we have a baby and then I stay home like I thought would happen?" But then I remember that plans change, God has other ideas of what He wants me to do, it's okay to not do things the way you originally thought it would go.... and to keep trucking on.... "In his mind a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps" (Prov. 16:9).

This semester is going to be absolutly NUTS. So if you don't hear from me for awhile, know that everything is probably fine, I'm just running around like a chicken with my head cut off trying to remember which antimicrobials to prescribe, etc....